Waiting

There seems to be the constant message from God lately about waiting.
The messages last Sunday were both about waiting on God and His timing. It seems like God might be trying to teach me patience-- something that is definitely not my strong suit. ;)

Right now I am currently without a steady full time job, I have been sending my application in everywhere but people are either not hiring or I do not fit the qualifications. It is incredibly frustrating, but I keep praying that God will point me in the direction He wants me to go and to open the doors that need to be opened and close the doors that need to be closed. I know that His plan is what is best. And His timing is best....even when I think that my timing would be better.

I wondered why I felt God calling me to not go to Kenya this summer, it was such an amazing experiance last year, but I did not feel a peace about it at all. I ended up not going to Kenya and going to youth camp as a counselor instead. It was an amazing experiance where I met with God and resurrendered my life to Him. On the way home (a 15 hr drive!) I was invited by a sweet friend to come with her and some other friends to India on a mission trip. I have wanted to go to India since I was in 1st or 2nd grade and hear Amy Carmichel's story. I realized that all of this would probably not have fallen into place the way it did if I had ignored God's direction and went to Kenya.

I have seen in others and in my own life how God has a plan, but I guess I'm getting discouraged right now because I do not hear any hard and fast answer of where to go. I'm beginning to wonder if I should pursue nursing because I did not pass the test the first time and I'm wondering if that was a sign from God and if so, where do I go from here? I'm one of those who goes full force at something once I get started and have done that with the nursing degree, so if I don't have that, where do I go? I still would love to pursue that, but what if I'm supposed to do something else?

Ahh..patience...something I'm trying to learn :)